Endless Nights

Haunted by you.

Haunted by the thoughts of you.

Making my every night feel like a roller coaster.

By the mere thought of you, my heart starts to pound.

Loud.

Fast.

Just like that night.

I want to scream.

Shout out what I feel.

My nights are becoming longer.

I am starting to hate nights.

I want the morning to come.

I want to go out of the room.

To enjoy again.

To laugh.

To smile.

To do everything I did before…

Before you.

I don't know what to feel.

I don't know what to think.

I don't want to think anymore.

But I have to…

Because when I think,

I know I am alive.

I want to live again.

I feel I already died.

I admire you for being strong.

I say that I am strong too.

I am strong.

I am strong.

I wish I was as strong as you.

I want to say so many things to you.

I want to say it to you at night.

Because I become a child at night.

Innocent.

Helpless.

Wanting to be loved.

…

…

Sleep.

I just want to sleep.